DAYTONA BEACH -- As Denise Hardiman sat on one of
the hard metal chairs at the makeshift assistance center for flood
victims, she began to take inventory of her life.
With nothing to do
but think during hours of waiting in line, she came up with a list that
left tears streaming down her cheeks while dozens of strangers milled
around her in the crowded hallway.
A marriage about to end. A
custody battle probably about to start. A 15-year-old son in a juvenile
detention center. A kidney stone operation coming up. A rental home and
most of her possessions badly damaged by murky floodwater. Almost no
money to deal with it all.
"Do you have a place to stay?" interrupted an unfamiliar male voice.
Hardiman
raised her head and looked into the dark brown eyes of the man stopping
to take her hand and talk. It was Gov. Charlie Crist offering
reassurance that a lot of people were working hard to make sure that
victims of last month's floods would get help.
"You don't need to worry. It'll be OK," Crist told her.
But
the 36-year-old Daytona Beach woman walked back out into the sweltering
heat that afternoon with little more than a plastic bucket filled with
cleaning supplies.
"This is too much," Hardiman said on that day
almost two weeks ago. "This is one of the hardest things I've ever had
to do. We didn't have that much to begin with."
That was May 26.
Things haven't gotten much better since. She and her 5-year-old
daughter Alexis are still living in a friend's mobile home, which is
already crowded with four other people.
Floor tiles in their
temporary quarters are cracking and buckling, as are sections of the
faux wood wall paneling. The ceiling leaks and the toilet overflows. A
thick stench of stale cigarette smoke hangs in the air.
A
well-worn couch doubles as a bed for both her and Alexis -- when it's
available. She came home from work late Thursday night and the three
couches in the living room were all claimed, with Alexis on one. So she
spent the night in her truck, soaked in sweat and cramped up.
The
next morning Alexis awoke in a panic on the couch, wondering why her
mother had disappeared. Pretty soon, that roof over their heads could
disappear, too.
The man who owns the mobile home, Richard
Loughlin, manages the Ormond Beach trailer park on Nova Road, and he
was just fired. Loughlin, who has also allowed Hardiman's 19-year-old
son to stay with him the past few months, said he'll help as long as he
can.
"I couldn't say no," Loughlin said. "She had just clawed her
way back after her husband left, and then the floods hit. I wouldn't
have had it any other way. She's my friend and she's had a rough time."
Hardiman
has signed up for assistance from the Federal Emergency Management
Agency, and that could bring her help with rent for two or three
months. But she doesn't know if she can go back to her rental home off
Bellevue Avenue, which has been gutted of everything -- even the tub,
sinks, counters and drywall.
There's emergency housing, but that
has to be re-approved every three days, and that makes her nervous.
Some of the only solid help she has received is a voucher for gas from
Goodwill and some clothing for her and her daughter, $30 worth for
each. But she's grateful for it and a few agencies that have tried to
help.
"If it wasn't for Project Hope, the Red Cross and FEMA I'd
have nothing," she said. "Someday I'll donate to them, even if it's 50
cents."
Right now, she doesn't have 50 cents to spare. She
normally works six days a week at a fast food restaurant, but she was
forced the past two weeks to reduce that to two days to deal with her
troubles.
The few belongings she has left are stuffed in big
black garbage bags in the back of her truck and in the mobile home park
storage unit. If she has to leave the trailer park, she doesn't know
what she'll do with the few pieces of second-hand furniture and
flood-soaked toys in there.
"What kills me most are the kids' beds," she said. "No matter what I always wanted to make sure they had a place to sleep."
She
salvaged some clothing, most of which was caked in mold by the time she
was able to get it out of the house. She washed it and hopes she and
her daughter won't get sick from it. Most of her 15-year-old son
Austin's clothes had to be thrown out.
She, her older son and her mother, who has a lung disease, all became ill after moving her things out of the flooded home.
"I
couldn't believe all the stuff she had to throw away," said her mother,
55-year-old Connie Johnson. "She was just getting back on her feet. I
try to talk to her every day now. I've never seen her so distraught."
Most
of Alexis' toys were destroyed in the flood, but one day last week she
still had a Rubik's Cube she bought for $1 at a flea market. The little
blond girl played with it for no more than 10 minutes before it broke
apart into dozens of pieces. She was left with a sheet of paper and pen
to write her ABC's.
"I've tried to talk to her," Hardiman said.
"But mentally and emotionally I'm not here. I don't know how to handle
it myself much less explain it to someone else."
Hardiman's food
stamps were yet another flood casualty. So when Alexis is hungry, that
frequently means a trip to the Sonic restaurant on Ridgewood Avenue.
Hardiman works there, and she can get a 50 percent discount.
She's
grateful for the discount and the job. But she's having trouble
rebuilding her life on $7.50 an hour. She's hoping to become an
assistant manager.
"I just want to feed my kids and take them to
the doctor," she said. "I'm so overwhelmed now. I can't do nothing
about my son, my health, my belongings. I just don't know how I'm going
to do any of this. I don't want a pity party. I'm trying to do
everything by myself, but it's just not working."
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